Wednesday, March 22, 2006

People are Strange... 

...when you're a stranger...

Sometimes I just don't understand why people think the way they do. For instance, my friend who is a copywriter is having to replace the voiceover artist he uses for the product he works on because this voiceover got into some trouble that made it to the news. Apparently the product he works on does not want to be associated with said voiceover artist's bad deed.

My question is this: WHO THE HELL CARES? I mean, COME ON! Are there going to be throngs of people who say, "Hey! That's the voice of (insert celebrity here)doing the voiceover for this ad for (insert product here)!!! They did (insert bad deed here)!!! I don't EVER want to buy (insert product here) again!!!


I have another friend who just absolutely HATES Bill Paxton. With a blinding rage of hate known by no other.

My question is this: WHAT THE HELL DID BILL PAXTON DO TO YOU??? Bill Paxton is like the most innocuous person in the celebrity world. I'll bet that 7.6523 people that read this are thinking to themselves, "Who is Bill Paxton?" (Google him)

What thing that people do makes you say, "WHAT THE HELL???"


Sunday, March 19, 2006


Yes, I know I've been kinda quiet. I've been feeling quiet. I've got some things on my mind that I can't discuss here that has me feeling...well, quiet. So I hope that those of you that may have been checking back here and going, "Where the hell did she go?!?" will forgive me for my silence.


This afternoon I was watching the We channel and they had this show called "John Edward Cross Country." If you don't know who John Edward is, he is a psychic medium that is able to communicate with those that have passed on. I would SO love to go to one of his shows. I like the thought that those that have passed away are still with us, but not physically. I would LOVE to hear from my Mom. I would love to hear from my Dad, too, but more so from my Mom.

Other people that knew my Mom may disagree with me, but I believe that my Mom believed in God, but was just mad as hell at him. She held a lot of resentments from her childhood that she was never able to fully let go of. Some would also say that's probably where her cancer came from, and I can't say that I disagree.

Mom had lung cancer that had metastasized to her brain. The last month or so of her life, the cancer in her brain was really doing a number on her. There were lots of times when I would look at her and know that the Mom I knew was not there. However there were times when I looked into her eyes and saw that she was lucid and there with me. One such time I got her into a wheelchair and took her outside so she could feel the sun and breeze on her skin. She tried to talk to me seriously about things that were on her mind about me. I know she worried that I would fall to pieces after she died. However her brain and her mouth were not cooperating and I only understood part of what she was trying to tell me, however I looked into her eyes and saw the concern that was there.

We tried to have hospice come to her at her house so that she could die at home among her things. When this was first being set up, she was visited by many different facets of hospice, including the chaplain. I must admit that I looked on anxiously while the Chaplain was there in hopes that she might be having a lucid moment while the Chaplain was talking to her. I don't think that was the case. She was smiling and nodding, but I don't think she was truly there.

I followed the Chaplain out to the car as he was leaving and asked him if he thought she would go to heaven if she was mad at God. He really didn't have an answer for me. That was so unsettling for me.

Since that fall day in 1996, I've grown in my own spirituality and faith and I believe that she is in a happier place and is with me always in my heart. However, I would love to hear what she has to say to me, my sister and my nephew. So much has happened over the last almost 10 years since she's died.

I didn't fall to pieces after Mom died, I wanted to, but I didn't want to prove my Mom and everyone else right by doing that. So instead, I loaded up the U-Haul and moved outside of the state of Texas for the first time in my 29 years and started a new life for myself in the Atlanta area. I reconciled with my Dad and was able to be here for the end of his life. I have made a lot of really good friends and have learned so many lessons.

My sister moved away from Texas and finally got to live by the sea for a while before moving to the Mountains and meeting her Prince Charming.

My nephew finished high school and then worked for a few years before starting college. He's grown so much as a person and he's a really amazing young man.

I think first and foremost, Mom would say that she is so proud of us and what we've done. I just wonder what else she would share with us?

I love and miss you more than I can say, Momma.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

It's been a while since I've done one of these... 

How evil are you?


Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I sang a happy song to my car today... 

...and it went a little something like this....

I love my car
She so totally ROCKS!
Never would I put her in a box!

Yes, I was very in touch with my "Inner Child" at that moment! However I do love my car. It was a lovely November evening in 2001 when she and I met and I've been in love ever since!

My Honda is the first "Brand-New-Nobody-Has-Driven-It-But-Me" car. I took her to the shop last weekend for her 60000 mile check up and she passed with flying colors!

Yesterday I went and bought my car a present. The only thing my lovely little car did not have was a CD player. SHE'LL HAVE ONE ON FRIDAY NIGHT! Woo Hoo!

Here in the ATL, we're having a little Spring Preview. The temperatures have been in the upper 60's and low 70's for the last couple of days. Lovin' it! On the way home from work today, I rolled down the windows and cranked the tunes. MAN, I love doing that! I'm going to love it even more Friday Night!

I've got to come up with the perfect first song to play in my car after the new stereo is installed. Anybody got any suggestions? Drop me a comment and let me know!


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